This _____ day
Today is a day with double meaning. Two very opposite effect on me. Two extremes that is.
First of all, it is my dog's first year on earth! It has brought much joy to my family. Imagine right after a tiring day at work, the first thing you see when you step into the house is the cute furry monster welcoming u home, jumping up and down till you give it the attention it wants. Yeap, that is our good-o-doggy.
Next, it is the complete opposite. The departure of a good friend of mine. It has been 9 years since she left us.
Depression is a very scary illness. It hits anyone. Even those closes to you. I hate myself for not being able to identify the signs earlier.
People told me that I was too young and shouldn't blame myself for such unfortunate event. But seriously... How can I not? I was one of her very few friends she had. I hate myself for not being observant, not showing a little more care or concern.
It is a life changing day for both events. Ok... Not really for doggy's birthday. I don't remember when it came to my house and I shall just treat it as 18th feb (or I will have to celebrate it's birthday and the first day being in our home... Spare me the hassle).
Be it losing a friend or having a pet, it is life changing. I have changed and grown alot through the 2 events.
I have got mixed feelings for the arrival of this day. Lets just smile and enjoy the day...
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