It has been a long time ever since I felt so blue.
As cool as I always am, I told that person calmly without showing much expression regarding that incident.
I thought I got through it... but once my friend left, with earpiece in ear, I started skipping songs after songs to suit my mood.
There goes the guilt rushing through me...
While waiting for bus, the dear friend whatsapp me n told me to let it go.
Tears started flowing down. Damn... I wished I wasn't that sentimental...
The more she whatsapp me, the more I couldn't stop crying...
I think when I got up the bus, the bus driver was looking at me thinking if I was ok...
Anyways, before I reach my house bus stop, I whatsapp my bro to ask if he has already slept.
He replied no and why. I typed I am crying now and asked if mum and dad was still awake. I didn't wanna go home.
He said he will come down and shall talk about it after that.
I was sitting at the void deck and when my bro reached, I started pouring my heart out to him.
Surprise! My bro didn't knw this until today...
Well... I dunno how many people actually knows that I am still trying to get out of this.
But now, I am rather sure that the 3 closest people in my life now actually knows about it (seriously... I wonder if my parents ever knew... I told my mum and she only showed concern during that few days after the incident. well... maybe she didn't want to remind me of it...).
I suddenly felt the greatness of having a brother.
When he had trouble, I was there to help.
When I have trouble, he's there too.
Thank God for that.
Blood is thicker than water.
P.S. For you-know-who who's reading this post. PLEASE don't kill me for not telling you that I was emo-ing. I didn't wanna bother you since u were busy. It was already rather late anyways. You needed to rest then. Don't feel bad about it too. I am fine now. =)
Damn... I only have less than 3 hrs to sleep... Zzz...
All good things come in a package...
Finally got a job aft... gosh... it's embarrassing to say how long I took to find this job...
Finally passed my IPPT aft... argh... not the time again...
Finally have a bf aft... oh well... u knw wat? let's not start counting...
I think I don't have the feeling to blog rite now coz my mind is thinking abt smth else...
Shall satisfy Pearl by posting an update post.
Btw, I kinda quit BR... No time for that. =)
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